Saturday, December 10, 2016

for Buddy (and the Black one)

for Buddy (and the Black one)

WE exist in planes, as planes
stratum of artificial madness
mattering only to our God
who lovingly (perhaps)
regrettably re-planes us.

You've heard of me
no bread of numbness
dumbs down that pain
by which His hand succumbs.

I have heard You
on your bedroom, teary
the sleeping coming-morning
wrestling-carving, intervening:
She …

She is a light and dark
altogether she is might
her likeness but a rubber lip
on the edge of neighboring time

See the way the light
chases down inside,
the cornea of her liquid amber eye?
The flecks of red and violent silver
bend the marble into sky.

She sits the sunlight of her youth,
knowing what is coming after.
Still all is mirth and squirrels
a rabbits chase into the dower.

I know she sees You.

She's been so close.
All 'round her is that death.
She flexes fast and bawls with joy
proud sinews do the rest.

Companion blonde,
The boy hung star lays cold.
His friends, the men, bring fire and julep,
To celebrate the waking old;
the coolness of his day,

I know he knows.
"Don't break my love, don't break.
Don't worry boys within, without,
my spirit grows …."

My Left
He is my watch and constant stand.
He knows the job though I know not
the crown of thought he comprehends

That thought has seen my life protect
And to it's end,
With quarter hind and quarter movement
pack, to, fro
inherent bend.

He rises in my arms and sleeps there also
My puppet cricket bee my doff my fearless partner.

She claims the space he easily resigns
She moves in knowing it-is all because
He tenders to her kind -

Her past, the horror-dark she tastes and still pretends
Our mirth will last forever
That hope is but an end
That all will be together never aged;
never wending waning-dawning
these autumnal pages.

Hail Buddy! Sage! Sifu-
Tolerant spirit.
To Mamma Black, her heart
and to the way she tests us.

Bring us round and right expose
exactly whom we bought;
For whom,
And who exactly
we are not.

To the mirror eye, though often so unkind to me,
Find Buddy, ever joyful, ever able, clear unchanging.
Dog my God redeeming ever his mankind
Surely, he hath shown again Messiah.

Ever Alpha and Omega,
ever light unwavering,
And as ever, soft as water, ever
Strong as bended breaking.

Winter light folds in.
He faces brave.

She hides beside him
ever slave.

Ever kin:

She is at last my Darling, thing
And He
forever mine,
my peerless, peerless friend.

Joshua Drew Payne December 10, 2©16

Friday, December 9, 2016


Stroll over to and check out works completed and works pending.There are at least five other pending projects not listed there including an Operatic Record and a Musical Theatre Collection. SO
Let me know your opinions about KICKSTARTER. We'd like to get these projects done but I'm not so great and self-promotion or begging. And with this I simply ASK:
We (the band, studio cats and players and various producers and engineers) figure we could do about 6 big records a year if the money was in place. That'd be 7 hours of music a year for the next how ever long we get to be on this great planet. And the though the seeming public continues to pirate music, I still believe personally in a "no compromise" with regard to paying these world class musicians top dollar. That's why these projects are at a stand still. SIDE NOTE: This past week a FAN told me she was going to donate to our project page for the gift of my CHRISTMAS RECORD. In good faith I went ahead and forwarded her a link not only to "GOD SO LOVED" but to 4 of my albums. She thanked me and never bothered to pay for one album. God love her! (Hi five to all you "FANS" who repeatedly do this to me and many other artists. I'm seriously glad the music is getting out there.)
Ai ya yai. Digress Josh DIGRESS! :)
I still believe in this business of making music. My friend Gloria Gaither called me and we were discussing the like, piracy and the state of the commonwealth. She being a STEINBECK scholar (for real) said, "Joshua, YOU work for the GREAT PATRON. Show up for the work, you will be provided for. She was right. She is right. Exactly right. AND this continues to be the case.
PROMISE: I will do my best to keep the faith.
In return, if YOU like what I'm doing, give me a little shout out below and let me know your take on all of it and as to whether you think a KICKSTARTER campaign would be worth the effort. Love you people.